130s by Thirty - Who am I?

Who is '130s by Thirty'? I am 28yo Wife and Mother of 2 small boys who is by medical stanards - overweight and sick of feeling fat, un-cute/sexy and at most times doesn't enjoy shopping for clothes. I tend not to think of myself as 'overweight' but 'chubby'. Cause 'Chubby' is cute, right? Chubby is loveable, squeezable and happy. Right? Um. Not so much as an adult Woman/Mom.

I am Happy. I do enjoy my family, life and who I am. But am I doing everything that I would like to do? No. Do I enjoy being out in the summer weather playing with my hubby and boys? No. I choose not to wear shorts and tank tops, due to looking fat in them, having my thighs touch each other and then having my self esteem hurt in the process. I do wear a swimsuit to be in the lake/pools with my older son, but while I enjoy him having fun, I don't like how I look or feel wearing a swimsuit. Especially when the swimsuits that I do buy have features that are designed to cover up as much as possible and appear to be designed with a grandmother in mind. I Hate that.

I could totally go on and on about how clothes are not cute for 'the chubby', how my body jiggles and wiggles when I don't want it to. But to keep it short, it all leads to the reason why I am here. To be in my 130s by Thirty.

Starting in Jan 2010, I have 13 months until I turn Thirty and I plan to drop approximately 56 lbs to reach 130 pounds. 56 lbs - 56 weeks. A pound a week on average. I only wish it was as easy as it sounds. By making some changes in my eating and exercising habits, I hope it well be! *yes I know it is going to be hard work, just applying some posivite thinking for the moment.